Reign On Me

Reign on me
Like the sky reigns over the mountains
Reign on me
Like the world is filled with sky
Reign on me
And ignite all of your people
Reign on me
Reign on me

Exhausted

Lord,
I am exhausted. I don't know if I have placed myself around people with a lot going on or you placed me there, but I am emotionally exhausted. I am physically exhausted. I am spiritually exhausted. I have attempted to solve my issues myself. I have tried to grasp a handle on everything going on and when I do I find that it is all slipping away even quicker. Perhaps, if I just let go of it all You will take care of it. I know you will take care of it You always do, but I just still get worried. I guess I am still learning to trust you. It is still hard, but I know that I need to know you more. So, I can trust you more. I am just so dumb. It is like I know what to do, but I still want to attempt it my way, and then I fail. Ugh it is annoying. I am annoyed with myself again.

I have three people that are constantly on my mind: Matt, Megan, and Colton. Now, I love these people with all my heart. I believe I love Colton and Megan with the love of Christ...or at least I am getting there. Matt I know it is a fleshy love. It is not even a love thing it is more of desire issue. Now, if it be Your will I want to get past that I want to see Matt the way You see Matt. I want him to see You in me. I don't know what Your plan is for me and Matt's friendship, but all in all if it is the end then Amen if it is not Amen. All I ask is your will be done.

My legs are so tired. I have been working out so hard lately. I cannot even endure the thought of being this weight for the rest of my life. You have given me a body that should be functioning at a maximum capacity, and for me to be carrying all this weight that I shouldn't be is a disgrace. Now, my body that you created is not, but I am not taking care of it the way I should. I am not even taking care of my spirit the way I should. I really need you Lord. I know you are forever present, but please be here with me. I seek after You. I love You.

You are so magnificent and wonderful. I love You. I am always amazed about how mindful you are of me. How even when I don't see myself and I want to hide that you see me. You see my foolish and shame and faults and still love me unconditionally. I love you so much Lord and all I want to do is make you happy. Please help me; I need you Lord.

Love You Daughter,
Tosin